18th
Still Crazy after all these years.
Well at 45 i find myself in a position that I have never faced. Being completely alone. I have been living first with my parents, then my mother died early in my life and it was just me and my dad, then a husband, the just me and my son, then husband # 2 and another child, then just my daughter and I. I have always believed that being able to be alone is a sign of strength. That some how the mountain person who lives in the hills never being near others was somehow stronger then the rest of us. But I question that now. I live in a new community so I don’t know any adults and both the kids are on or going on extended trips. People say use this time for yourself, like taking care of my children and friends is not a way of taking care of myself. I am a person who likes to be around others, not large groups but a few people I love. Does this make me weak? I am contuining to build my phone therapy practice after years of seeing people face to face , but this is also isolating. I have spent much time alone during my life but it was by choice this is not. I am sure I will learn something from this, but honestly I think I will be reminded that I don’t like to be alone.
